I have no idea what is going on right now. I can't focus, I can't complain, I can't fight, and I certainly don't have it in me to even research or investigate with what has been brought to light.
In essence, I'm lost. I don't even know which direction to go. I've been advised, but can't accept it yet. I've been counseled but can't come to terms with what consequences that may bring.
I have 3 very big things consuming me right now and for the first time, I don't know how to prioritize. On the one hand, one of these things is of the utmost importance, and should be dealt with head on with as much energy that I have.
But it could also be said that the other, being completed, would help to alleviate the only one I actually care about. I don't know if it is too late.
I have zero support. Once again, I'm on my own, but will work accordingly within the parameters that have always been there for me to fight against.
The third is of the least important as I see it now, but would offer the most enjoyment upon it's completion. Go figure. Something for me to finally achieve after so much time and toil and adversity, yet just seems the most insignificant at this point.
So... Chocolate, Vanilla, or Strawberry?